Wishful Wedding


Wishful Wedding
Outside I can be free,
The grass is greener and sky is bluer.
My senses dull here as I stand,
Ankles throbbing.
Stomach limiting me to shallow breaths.
The false light lies,
I see grey instead of white.
The light betrays my refection
That can be me…
I’m not that tired,
Not the angry,
Not this…boring.
Remembering who I was,
I must become her again.
I can’t do that here.
My best friend sees beauty,
but I don’t know what she means.
She guides me away, as I look back,
All I can see is the window.
I wish it wasn’t so green.

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