Obsession

 I hear it’s the bringer of all things; the solution to all my problems. It’s what will give me focus to banished all the distractions keeping me from my dreams. It could just be a trap, a laser pit scorching my hopes as dreams, but I suppose that only happens if my expectations are misguided. That only happens if I miss the learning opportunity. That only happens if I give up. 

So if I give into my stubbornness, I’ll finally start to win?

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